I feel the need to write. I've always felt the pull of words, of making my thoughts concrete through the mashing up of letters. I'm not really sure what this blog will ultimately be about, but today its about the precarious and oddly liberating situation I've found myself in. I've had a bit of a shock this week. Actually, "a bit of a shock" is quite the understatement. For the first time in my life I have no responsibilities beyond church. I could do anything with my time. I don't have a deadline to meet, a schedule to adhere to, an email to send, a test to take, not a class to attend nor a desk to sit behind. For the first time in my 23 years of life, I am free to do whatever my heart desires. Its odd; this not having a set schedule and not having people depending on me. What do I want to do? Who do I want to become? Should I take a trip? Go to grad school? Start my own nonprofit to benefit women and children? Maybe I'll become a pilot or a sailor. Perhaps I'll try my hand at painting or photography. What about sewing or graphic design? How about counseling, teaching, or even broadcast journalism? I've always been pretty good at making money, paying bills on time, living up to expectations and meeting deadlines. I've never been good at following my heart and exploring all options. I intend to do that now, to explore every outlet that seems appealing and even things that don't. Perhaps I'll become a nurse or doctor? Scratch that, other peoples bodily issues freak me out. I think its time I stop and smell the roses for a bit. I fully intend to enjoy this freedom God had blessed me with and find my passion in life.
I have at least 2 months to figure it out before the money runs dry and they cart me off to jail for not paying my bills. When did I become an adult? Man that's so strange. I'm already a daughter, a friend, a girlfriend, a sister, a niece and a mormon. Soon enough I'll tack on wife and one day even mother to that list. I wonder what other descriptive word(s) will ultimately define my soul.
Let the journey begin!
ps, I need some help with my header. How do I make the picture long and get the words in the bottom left hand corner?
2 comments:
Welcome to the blogasphere! You wrote a great post as an introduction! Can't wait to read more! I've been blogging for over three years and can't stop.
As for the header...Do you have Print shop or some other photo shop? I usually have a picture and add text to it there. Then size it according to Blogger standards and import from your saved source. I just learned by trial and error!
Love the photo! I'm bookmarking you! Love ya!
Hey! What is going on? Did you quit your job or something?!
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