Friday, January 21, 2011

Its been a week...


It has been exactly one week since I was laid off.   In this week off, I've done a lot of cleaning up.  Not of my physical space but of computer files, pictures on my phone, thoughts in my mind and  random things I've had on the mental to-do list.  While doing that, I found these pictures taken in December of 2009 in the quad at LSU while waiting between final exams.   I often spent my time between classes lounging in the grass or on the benches under the massive oak trees that are dotted on LSU's campus.  The oak trees are perhaps my most favorite thing about LSU. 


For 13 months I went to the office from 8am-5pm, sometimes emerging for a one hour lunch break, leaving at 5pm to head to the gym or to this engagement or that meeting.   In my high school years I spent at least one hour outside, most days.  We'd "sun bath" in the courtyard or after school I'd ride my bike around the neighborhood or play basketball with the neighbor boys.  I'd forgotten how wonderful it was to simply sit outside and enjoy the sun! 



So, on Wednesday I did just that.  I went to the gym and then picked up lunch for Paul.  He asked if I'd stay and eat with him, so we sat on the back of his truck behind the Jiffy Lube (one of his two jobs) and ate fried chicken from Popeyes.  (Did I mention I'm from Louisiana!?)  That was by far the most fun and relaxing "lunch break" I've had in over a year. I rolled up my pants and the sleeves of my shirt, turned my face to the sun, and soaked it all in.  I can only imagine what the few customers who pulled in thought.  You know what, I don't even care who saw me.  It was absolutely lovely despite the fact that I may or may not have looked a little sketchy.  

Tomorrow morning, I've organized a "Winter Games" outdoors event at a local park.  We'll be as 
"winter" as we can be here in the Deep South.  We'll have ice blocking races, kick ball tournaments, and a few games of broom hockey going on.  I'll post pictures of the madness next week. 

I've missed my daily dose of warmth and feeling the grass between my toes.   

Saturday, January 15, 2011

New Beginnings

I feel the need to write.  I've always felt the pull of words, of making my thoughts concrete through the mashing up of letters.  I'm not really sure what this blog will ultimately be about, but today its about the precarious and oddly liberating situation I've found myself in.   I've had a bit of a shock this week.  Actually, "a bit of a shock" is quite the understatement.   For the first time in my life I have no responsibilities beyond church.  I could do anything with my time.  I don't have a deadline to meet, a schedule to adhere to, an email to send, a test to take, not a class to attend nor a desk to sit behind.  For the first time in my 23 years of life, I am free to do whatever my heart desires.  Its odd; this not having a set schedule and not having people depending on me.  What do I want to do? Who do I want to become? Should I take a trip?  Go to grad school? Start my own nonprofit to benefit women and children? Maybe I'll become a pilot or a sailor.  Perhaps I'll try my hand at painting or photography.  What about sewing or graphic design? How about counseling, teaching, or even broadcast journalism? I've always been pretty good at making money, paying bills on time, living up to expectations and meeting deadlines.  I've never been good at following my heart and exploring all options.  I intend to do that now, to explore every outlet that seems appealing and even things that don't.  Perhaps I'll become a nurse or doctor?  Scratch that, other peoples bodily issues freak me out.   I think its time I stop and smell the roses for a bit.  I fully intend to enjoy this freedom God had blessed me with and find my passion in life.

I have at least 2 months to figure it out before the money runs dry and they cart me off to jail for not paying my bills.  When did I become an adult? Man that's so strange.  I'm already a daughter, a friend, a girlfriend, a sister, a niece and a mormon.  Soon enough I'll tack on wife and one day even mother to that list.  I wonder what other descriptive word(s) will ultimately define my soul.

Let the journey begin!

ps, I need some help with my header.  How do I make the picture long and get the words in the bottom left hand corner?